I haven’t cried this much for a long long time.
I haven’t cried this much for a long long time.
So this was team Italy for Nations Cup 2014. I must say, we definitely keep doing better.
I’m happy and privileged to be a part of such an amazing group of women. We all have our talents that we bring to our team.
I’m glad I got to be a part of something that is growing and experiencing rises and falls.
Finishing second isn’t bad for a 3 year contender. Let’s just rock it out next year and win it!
It’s been almost a year since everything spiraled down.
Now and then I hear things about you. It’s weird. I thought I would actually feel anger or some sort of resentment when I did. But I didn’t. I realized how over it I got and how far I’ve moved on from it all. I even asked how you were doing and worried about you.
It’s funny, because the other day, you came up into conversation with my girlfriend and she asked how and what’s been going on and I told her I’m not too sure. I really only know what people have been telling me.
So later that week, I went to go check out how you were doing the one way I know. Your blog.
From reading those, it just seems like you’re going through a tough time with your relationship and things aren’t working out the way you wanted to. It’s none of my business how you handle things so I’m not sticking my nose into it.
The following are just my observations and how I view the situation. What you take from it or not take from it, or don’t want to read it at all is up to you. But at the end of the day, I wish no bad on you at all. What happened a year ago is what happened with business and outside of the business you are another human being and I never wish any bad on another human being regardless of our history.
Kid, you’re young and he’s even younger. You two met when he wasn’t of age and hadn’t seen the world past high school. Now that he has, it’s not surprising that thinking about settling down has “spooked” him. I’m 24 and my girlfriend is 27 and we get spooked talking about moving in together after we graduate, let alone have a future together.
You’re right, he may be your prince. He may be your true love. But I don’t think that is now. He has a world before him to explore and see and you have many things you want to do. You tell the world everyday you want to travel the world, be a doctor, live in NYC and countless other things. So take this time to do all the things that your heart wishes to accomplish. I’m not going to say that he’s going to pull through, just give him some time, because that’s giving you hope to grasp onto.
After my friend passed away so suddenly 2 years ago, I understand the true meaning of: remember the past, plan for the future but most importantly live for the now. Because you just don’t know whats going to happen next.
He needs time to grow kid. He needs to experience what the world can bring to him. He’s got a lot to understand, to experience, to live before he can say 110% that he’s ready to settle down. Sure, he may have said something like that already, but without experiencing the world, that can change. So let him experience the world and go accomplish your dreams. If you two were meant to be, one way or another your paths will cross again. Whether it’s a month from now, 4 months, 5 years or 10. Because until then, anything can happen. You can experience something that can change your perspective of who he is and your feelings, both weaken or strengthen.
Give yourself the time to do what you want. Your happiness should always be first and foremost to you. Because at the end of the day, it’s your life that matters most to you and should always be like that.
I hope you have a great summer. Enjoy it. Do things that you want to do. Go and explore and create memories that you can remember. Plan for a future trip to an exotic island. But most importantly, live for the present.
I think i melted when you told me you wanted a family with me. A child, a baby boy, apparently named Jacob and a puppy. A house, a car, my bike. A life. We travel together, we take family photos.
I want it all with you. I want the rest of my life to have you in it beside me. I want my child to have your last name (and mine too…duh). I want to kiss you good night and wake up with you there. I want to make you breakfast, a coffee for the mornings that I’m up first.
I want our vacations to be together. Japan, NYC, Thailand…anywhere. i want to travel the world with you by my side and make tremendous memories day after day.
So that when we get old, we can pull out those memories, photos, key chains, funny things that we found on our trips and bought. I want to remember all the details, the big the small, the everything. I want it all with you and only you.
Don’t you ever forget how beautiful you are. Because to me, no one can ever compare. You’re my angel, my shining star, my bright sunshine. I love you and I want you to remember that for as long as you keep me.